Katie's LJ

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 07:53:21 GMT

Is it natural to go through boughts of depression even when you think it's all over?

I just had to write that down. Cause this hurts... it hurts so much... but I thought I'd worked past all this shit. I thought I'd learnt to accept OCD and what it does to me. I wonder whether it's real depression or me just remembering the past.

Sometimes parents help so, so, so much. Sometimes they just don't. This time it's the latter.

On a different note: Happy Australia Day!

Yes, this journal DOES still exist!

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 01:02:24 GMT

Ergh, this is horrible! The way I treat my LJ. Like it's a lump of shit.
When I got this I knew I'd have absolutely no success in updating it - at all. See how right I was?

Things haven't been going the greatest lately. I've had trouble with my head shaking problem, mainly. It came on after I found out that one of my good friends had died. It's pretty depressing really... drove me into this hole.

I'm hoping that a bit of help (which I've had of late) will continue to turn out in a positive way. So far, I've only moved ahead from it, which helps a lot.

I'm right back into the school year now. So much work on my back... it's stressful. Today's off though.

I've got a swag of homework to do, so I'd best be off.

Fingers crossed that I find SOME reason to write in this again soon!

Bored!

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 03:16:34 GMT

As usual, I don't have a lot to say!!
I've just come back from a week long holiday on the South coast in Australia and it was such a nice break! Christmas is just around the corner - I can't believe it! Santa is coming this year - YAY!
For everyone around... MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :-)

Survey

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 03:12:48 GMT

I've taken this from laalaa17 who originally took it from someone else. I hope you dont mind!! Just a little survey thingo - to kinda of introduce me in a different way :P

____YOUR LIFE____
they call me: Katie
sex: Female
my first breath of air: July 15th 1988
age: 16
status: Single
occupation: School student, not much else!!
nationality: Australian

____FAST FORWARD____
college planning to go: Well in Aussie College is year 11&12 (I dont know about you guys) so I'm staying on at the same school as I've been at for years.
wedding: I'd love something on the beach, or outside really. I'm not really religious so having a chapel wedding doesn't really interest me that much. I want to walk down the aisle and all that, but I don't want the religious ceremony part really cause to me it doesn't mean much.
children: Would love to have kids one day. I haven't thought about sexes, names, and all that, but right now I could say that I'd really like around 3.
looking forward to: LIFE!!
NOT looking forward to: I don't know, the unknown!

____PLAY____
feeling: Tired
Music listening to: Nothing atm, I dont' normally put music on the ocmputer!
doing: this
craving: chocolate
thinking of: what to answer!
hating: the hard things

____LOVE?____
love is: special
first love: Never "in" love as such
current love: my family and friends - no one "in" love though
love or lust?: Love - it's sooooooo much more
best love song: Oh, there's so many good ones to choose from. I'm a sucker for love songs.
Is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: I don't think so. I think the person who you are "in" love with should be devoted ALL of your affection rather than just being something shared.
true or false - all you need is love: True
have you ever been in love?: No.
is there such thing as love @ first sight?: I think love is deeper than just first site, althoguh I could have a debate with myself about the issue!

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
turn ons: The deeper things...
turn offs: people who are full of themselves!
do your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: In a way. They won't change my feelings for the person, but I do think that a relationship is so much more if your parents are happy too.
the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: Just be there!

____PICKY PICKY____
dog or cat: dog
short or long hair: long
innie or outie: Innie
sunshine or rain: sunshine
moon or sun: moon
basketball or football: football
righty or lefty: Righty
hugs or kisses: cuddles... or kisses with the loved one.
1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
bf/gf or best friend: best friend - they'll ALWAYS be there even during relationship issues
tv or radio: tv
starbucks or jamba juice: umm starbucks - unless jamba juice is like "Boost Juice" in Australia - in that case, Jamba Juice by far!
mc donalds or burger king: McDonald's
summer or winter: that's so tough for me... i love snow and love the beach!
written letters or e-mails: Written letters - they're more peronsal!
playstation or nintendo: none, i can't stand those games. I used to have a nintendo though and loved it, so nintendo - just cause of the memories!!
disney or nickelodeon: Disney
car or motorcycle: car
house party or club: Def house party, they're nicer
sing or dance: neithr really - a bit of both, not too much of either!
freak or slow dance: slow dance
yahoo messenger or aim: none... MSN!
google or ask jeeves?: Google

____MISCELLANEOUS____
whats your most embarrassing moment?: I can't think... I"m not embarrased to tell, just can't actually identify one!
what are you scared of?: the unknown...
what is your greatest accomplishment?: Achievements in School and sport. Just genearl, first placings and good grades.
how many DVDs do you have?: about ten - as a family. we borrow from dvd shop rather than buy most of the time.
last doctor visit: about a month or two ago
last phone call: best friend

NuMbEr .. :
of time you've been in love? 0
of boys you have kissed? 4
of times your name has appeared in a newspaper? about 10 or so...
of scars on your body?: 5 from operations, another couple from falling over, etc. when I was a little kid
of things in your past you regret? I dunno... not moving on from things faster

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
pretty? No
funny? No
hot? No
friendly? yes
ugly? no
loveable? yes
caring? Yes
sweet? sometimes
dorky? Yes

FAVORITE:
actor/actress: I'm not good with these things.
least favorite day: Monday
flower: white lillies at christmas time! YAY!
jewelry: rings, necklaces
summer/winter: can't say...

PERSON WHO LAST:
slept in your bed: Me... apart from me my best friend
saw you cry: Mum
sent you an email: A friend from interstate

HAVE YOU EVER:
said i love you and meant it? Yes, to family and friends
went out in public in pjs? Yep
kept a secret from everyone? Yes.
been to new york? No
to california? yes

WHEN/ WHAT WAS:
last cry: Last week
last book read: Pride and Prejudice for english at school!
last phone call: Ellen
last tv show: summerland - last night. premiere for aus...
last thing in your past you regret? I dunno.
showered: this morning
last shoes worn: mum's!
last cd played: Ministry of Sound
last thing written: Test for school
last word spoken: "cya"
last sleep: woke up at 6:15 this moring, so...almost 8 hours ago
last im: i dunno
last sexual fantasy: LOL, my business!
last ice cream eaten: Cookies and Cream - YUM!!!!!

Can anyone help?

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 08:01:18 GMT

I suck, normally computers aren't that bad but I've been going through making my journal a bit more than a white page on the computer and can't work out a few things.
1. How do I change the font? I have this thing against times new roman... nothing huge just would prefer something else. Can anyone tell me how to change it?
2. In an entry, how do I link to another person's journal? Like if I'm acknowledging them for something how do I change it to a link?
Thanks for any help...

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 07:30:37 GMT

I'm really really annoyed. I filled out one of those long surveys and then Mum came upstairs. I didn't want her to see it (nor do I want her to know I've got one of these things) so I minimised the window. She then asked me to see something on the computer so I had to give it away for five minutes, meaning that I lost the whole survey thing. It had taken me awhile!!
Anyway, Ill re-do one soon... maybe even now, It wont be nearly as long though. Humph, disapointing!

Hello

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 00:13:20 GMT

Hi, My name is Katie.

I'm new to the Journal. I've added an account but don't know how much I'll use it.
I'll do a facts page soon but this is a simple hello!

Love Katie xoxo